On December, 23rd,
I rolled into a ball in my bed
Instead of rejoicing and being merry, I thought about all these memories I have written about, and all these past Christmases, and felt sad.
They will be no more. And The Girls and I will be alone during the Christmas that comes. I felt suddenly tired as if a great weight had been falling on my shoulders. I was a mousefield lost in a great world of light and pleasures that were not mine anymore.
And so, after having taken care of The Girls, I went back to my bed, took some sleeping pills, rolled myself into a tight ball, and went to sleep.
Good night, friends